BLACK AND WHITE THINKING
You expect me to housewife myself.
And it’s true I’ve struggled to donate
my apron. Come under
my skirt, green babies.
I’ll keep you from the sunglassed.
And under the layers we can light
a fire, jump in it from foot to foot,
the dance you will inherit.
Resist not this cavern
of cigarettes, babies. Let high
tide pull you babes to
the spiky lip. My cigarettes
are sequin, my cigarettes
are sewn. My demeanor
is that of a smoker
of candy sticks.
I invite this chaos
into my apartment.
I ask it to remove
Its shoes before it tracks
in the smoke salt. I light
a whole pack and stick
each flame into my cheeks.
For I’m the one who seems a smoker
and so I push out flames.
Deep breaths. It’s a boy.
MY HELP CAN’T HELP YOU
If you don’t already know to bury your milk
And you don’t know how to burn your father’s country
My help can’t help you
If you show up asking for the world to dive in tandem
And you don’t de-crust the clamshells you collect
And your seaflowers are frozen in amber
And your blue blood is pooling spottier
My help can’t help you
And if your home address points back to your chatroom
Where you post things like “eat cock lengthwise”
Then your harmony’s haunted
Your skin is false stone
And my help can’t help you
I can drag you from the shipwreck
But if you wreck the next ship
My help can’t help
If you pray to computers
If you praise their current of xerox
Help can’t help you
What is the meaning of all this wet furniture?
I spent hours turnbuckling with a rag
The cities you loved once
You sheathed in ice
And you want me to help dry off
Without range, without power
You took the shape of hell
And you want me to help
MONSTER OF MINE
Love stories are problem sets
The breaking of my fall, your problem
My love for my robot was mine
Its water waste, its carousel ride
I’m still the woman with the vampire kiss
But I do go to bed when you tell me to
If you plant your knife on me, I’ll dice
These vegetables finely for soup
In a cold room I can’t say
You are mine, I am yours
I won’t say I broke the service
Entrance with my blooming vines
I don’t say I stole the golden hour
(Though I did, repeatedly)
Glancing at the dim moon over Scarsdale
Wondering what my computer can feel
Its titan leaves, its whistling sighs
And the way it grows, with time, looming and bitter
I always let my loves wear the plastic fangs
It’s the eyes anyway that suck out souls
When love throws me from its window
I bounce right back up
Crash through its glass panes
All four paws cut